"Listen to your heart.......before you tell him goodbye..."
Which is what I should have done. I had a dream last night about this guy, that I should have given more opportunity too. We were together for like a week, and when I say together, I mean we were in the preliminary stages. We definatly were not titled. But anyways thats unimportant. I basically didnt think, I got freaked out because we were diving into this relationship without really thinking about it. I went out one night, thought I wanted to hook up w/ another guy. So I ended it, because I made myself believe that I should not be in a realtionship if I wanted to hook up with other guys. And then a month later when I saw him with a new girl, my heart dropped, because i realized, I really did and do like him, I screwed up, BIG TIME....and there was nothing I could do about it. And I almost told him about it, I really was almost there, to tell him to give up on this other chick, and try again with me. But then i realized that's not fair, I like him but chances are, I would get fickle again, and poof I would push him to the side again. So I thought I was over it, I really thought I was, but then that dream last night. Why? Why the hell did I have that dream then? We were dating, and it was working, I just don't understand. So my life, I just don't get it, it's a mystery to me. And I have decided, I just have to get over you...
This weekend was fun though. Me and Kay went to Towson on Friday night to visit and party with Laura. And omg was it fun. Interesting things happened, haha. And then last night Luke, Luke's little broGina, Ashley (Gina's friend from school), Kay, and me all went and saw posideon, the movie. Really good, Really jumpy. And then we went to gina's and had ice cream, where we were joined by a bunch of other people. it was fun. But it always is fun when we hang out. But thats all for now, adios......
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