SHOCK

so its been like a month and a half since i've posted anything on here...so I know you are all shocked that this is going up. I'm not going to recap all of school, you guys know what happened, and if you dont whatev. I'm basically writing this becuase i need to get something off my chest.

I hate absolutly hate when you are unsure about situations, especially when you don't know how people are feeling. I really want to be sure about a paticular situation, that at the moment I have no control over, becuase the person it invloves is across the atlantic ocean. Talking to someone online for 6 months is the worst form of communication ever. Dont get me wrong I am happy I at least get to talk to him, but it's been so long. The worst part of it is, I dont know how he is feeling, becuase get this you cant see facial expression or tone of voice over the internet...shocking i know. So I am taking to interpret other things, which as a girl I have to do because it's what we all do. And the way I am interpreting this is, maybe he cares for me as much as I care for him, but I can't be sure, I can only hope. I guess we will see when he comes home, but he'll come home and if I get accepted to the Ireland program, I'll be leaving 2 months after that. So this is just a crappy situation all together. I wish I could just let it go, and look to someone else, but I can't, something keeps pulling me back. This sounds so middle school but everytime I see him online and we talk, it makes me so happy, how dorky does that sound...but it's our only form of communication, so I go with what I got.

Still in a weird mood that I have been in for days now, I just wanna figure this out....


P.S i love the masque and scavenger hunts